Well, it's been a while since my last post, but we are now in TX and I am so glad to be here. I recently started a position as a team member with Chick-Fil-A, and I love it.
Not much has happened in my oh-so-wonderfully-exciting life, but the continual running around after my 2 1/2 year old. Speaking of 2 1/2 year olds.....I just had to spank him.....grr. I hate that, it makes me feel like such an awful parent.
Well, on the marriage homefront....yeah, well, there's not really much to talk about. Guys are pricks and rude?
I am currently living with the in-laws, I enjoy it. Like I said, I'm glad to be back in TX. This is where my heart is. Today there is not much to report, but I will be better at posting later. Byes
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Friday!!
Well, I am home sick today with a sore throat, a headache, congestion, and I can't breathe. AAAHHH I love work...but I think it was them who made me sick :(
Well, I has been about a month that I have been working there and in that time I have learned a lot of who I am and who I want to be. I NEED to be me! I was telling a friend the other day that I have NOT done anything for MYSELF in the entire time I have been married and always been focused on being a wife and a mother. Don't get me wrong, I love having family and all that, but geez, you have to take time out to be you or you just get soo stressed you don't know which way is up.
Like I mentioned, I have learned a lot of myself while there and have been taught by some of the best people I know. Now there are some people that for some reason think they have nothing better to do than to just sit around and "try to start rumors" and "talk about you", but there are true genuine people there who really care.
Well, for instance, NOBODY up at work likes Kent, NOBODY! Everytime he calls up there or shows his face he makes an a** of himself! I am constantly being told "you don't need to put up with that", "nobody should be treated like that"," you don't deserve to be talked to like that", "how can he BRAG about being a minister, and act that way". Well, yes, they are right! I don't know why he does the things that he does, I don't know why he finds it necessary to treat me like I am lower than him. We are all equal and it's time he starts realizing it. He is also EXTREMLY EXTREMLY controlling of me and the things that I do. He has even accused me of shirking my responsibilities her at home. No, NO AT ALL. The problem was that I wasn't at home "taking care of him". Asher was already in bed, so that shouldn't have been an issue. He was not even doing anything, but sitting on his butt and playin' video games. I admit, maybe there were things that could have been done around the house, but honestly it's not gonna kill anyone to leave them where they are a lil longer, right? Now, back to the controlling issue: he doesn't let me have ANY money when he is at work. He controls it all. NO CAR (no granted his is in the shop, but this was and has been an issue for a LONG time), I can't have friends. He gets upset when I go out with my friends and I feel like he doesn't want me to have any. I mean, he sits me down like I am his daughter and talks to me. Then when I don't respond to him he gets upset with me. I try to talk to him and he yells at me like I am his daughter and not his wife. He doesn't want me to do anything. Why does he feel the need to control EVERY ASPECT of my life?
Stay tuned....many more rants and ramblings to come. Changes too!
Well, I has been about a month that I have been working there and in that time I have learned a lot of who I am and who I want to be. I NEED to be me! I was telling a friend the other day that I have NOT done anything for MYSELF in the entire time I have been married and always been focused on being a wife and a mother. Don't get me wrong, I love having family and all that, but geez, you have to take time out to be you or you just get soo stressed you don't know which way is up.
Like I mentioned, I have learned a lot of myself while there and have been taught by some of the best people I know. Now there are some people that for some reason think they have nothing better to do than to just sit around and "try to start rumors" and "talk about you", but there are true genuine people there who really care.
Well, for instance, NOBODY up at work likes Kent, NOBODY! Everytime he calls up there or shows his face he makes an a** of himself! I am constantly being told "you don't need to put up with that", "nobody should be treated like that"," you don't deserve to be talked to like that", "how can he BRAG about being a minister, and act that way". Well, yes, they are right! I don't know why he does the things that he does, I don't know why he finds it necessary to treat me like I am lower than him. We are all equal and it's time he starts realizing it. He is also EXTREMLY EXTREMLY controlling of me and the things that I do. He has even accused me of shirking my responsibilities her at home. No, NO AT ALL. The problem was that I wasn't at home "taking care of him". Asher was already in bed, so that shouldn't have been an issue. He was not even doing anything, but sitting on his butt and playin' video games. I admit, maybe there were things that could have been done around the house, but honestly it's not gonna kill anyone to leave them where they are a lil longer, right? Now, back to the controlling issue: he doesn't let me have ANY money when he is at work. He controls it all. NO CAR (no granted his is in the shop, but this was and has been an issue for a LONG time), I can't have friends. He gets upset when I go out with my friends and I feel like he doesn't want me to have any. I mean, he sits me down like I am his daughter and talks to me. Then when I don't respond to him he gets upset with me. I try to talk to him and he yells at me like I am his daughter and not his wife. He doesn't want me to do anything. Why does he feel the need to control EVERY ASPECT of my life?
Stay tuned....many more rants and ramblings to come. Changes too!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
whatever, whenever, wherevere. Blah Blah Blah
Well, seeing as how it has been a long time since I wrote on here, I thought to avoid getting gripped at for not updating (you know who I'm talking to...LoL) I would just go ahead and update it.
Well, it's been almost a month since I started working at McDonalds. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. The mgrs. are great, the people are great. I love having that much customer service and dealing with the customers all day long. Now granted, there are some cranky a** customers that come up in the store and try to put us all in a bad mood just because they got up on the wrong side of the bed, but we just have to keep telling ourselves that we are not going to be run by stupid a** people and allow them to determine our mood.
One (of the many) good things about working there is...since Asher has not started daycare yet, I am working opposite Kent's schedule. Those of you that know us both know how much of an a** he has been latley, and that I just don't want to be around him at times because I might blow up at him, and that would just cause more of an attitude that I am not prepared to deal with at this point. I know the day will come that I will just have to (in the words of Niecy Nash) "take a big girl pill", but I don't feel that day has come yet. LoL
Anyway, stay tuned for more rants and rambles! Love you all!
Thanks to those that read this. I know it's harsh at times.
Well, it's been almost a month since I started working at McDonalds. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it. The mgrs. are great, the people are great. I love having that much customer service and dealing with the customers all day long. Now granted, there are some cranky a** customers that come up in the store and try to put us all in a bad mood just because they got up on the wrong side of the bed, but we just have to keep telling ourselves that we are not going to be run by stupid a** people and allow them to determine our mood.
One (of the many) good things about working there is...since Asher has not started daycare yet, I am working opposite Kent's schedule. Those of you that know us both know how much of an a** he has been latley, and that I just don't want to be around him at times because I might blow up at him, and that would just cause more of an attitude that I am not prepared to deal with at this point. I know the day will come that I will just have to (in the words of Niecy Nash) "take a big girl pill", but I don't feel that day has come yet. LoL
Anyway, stay tuned for more rants and rambles! Love you all!
Thanks to those that read this. I know it's harsh at times.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
new job, new attitude...etc....
Well.....I started a new job on Mon (May 5th), and so far soo good. I am enjoying the people that I work with A LOT, I really like them. I will say though that after being there for a little over a week, I have come to realize what managers are better to work and the others. There are some that clearly don't care, and then there are some that want to see me succeed. Sometimes it is just really frustrating because I know that I should be a faster learner, and I think I am pretty d*** good for only having been at the job for a little over a week, but honestly I feel as though there are mgrs. there that don't want me to stay and could give a flyin' flip whether I do it right or now.
I really am trying to have a great attitude about it, but when there are people over me that are ALWAYS upset about something and complaining...I just get down. I know, I know...I'm transparent. What can I say?
I really am trying to have a great attitude about it, but when there are people over me that are ALWAYS upset about something and complaining...I just get down. I know, I know...I'm transparent. What can I say?
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Unloved and Underappreciated!
Well, as I sit here typing this I have tears streaming down my cheeks. It's what the rest of the world called Mother's Day. Yeah, do I happen to be the ONLY women in the world married to a man that underappreciates me. I mean, really! NOT EVEN a Happy Mother's Day! What the h*** is that all about? He is more interested in his STUPID t.v./video games and working to appreciate me. I will admit that I'm not perfect, and am working on my communication skills so I have a way to go to, but at least I am willing, right? He doesn't even seem willing, and that's why I feel the way I do.
I take care of Asher ALL THE TIME, keep the house clean, and work. What does he do....go to work and come home and sit in front of the t.v. and doesn't want me to talk to him. I don't understand it. He needs to talk to me. I know that he can't read my mind, but I can't read his either. I just don't understand it.
Any imput?
I take care of Asher ALL THE TIME, keep the house clean, and work. What does he do....go to work and come home and sit in front of the t.v. and doesn't want me to talk to him. I don't understand it. He needs to talk to me. I know that he can't read my mind, but I can't read his either. I just don't understand it.
Any imput?
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Attitudes
Attitudes
When you extend pure love to everyone with selfless motivation that is an attitude of kindness.
When you send good wishes and pure feelings to those who are in deep sorrow, that is an attitude of mercy.
When you see the virtues rather than the weaknesses in people that is an attitude of compassion.
When you bless and uplift someone even as they defame you, that is an attitude of forgiveness.
When you tolerate a situation and take responsibility as well as give cooperation even when not appreciated, that is an attitude of humility and self-respect.
Every second, every moment and every breath of your life is nurtured by attitude.
When you extend pure love to everyone with selfless motivation that is an attitude of kindness.
When you send good wishes and pure feelings to those who are in deep sorrow, that is an attitude of mercy.
When you see the virtues rather than the weaknesses in people that is an attitude of compassion.
When you bless and uplift someone even as they defame you, that is an attitude of forgiveness.
When you tolerate a situation and take responsibility as well as give cooperation even when not appreciated, that is an attitude of humility and self-respect.
Every second, every moment and every breath of your life is nurtured by attitude.
Moving, Garage Sales, and the Like
Well, with moving to a new house right around the corner, I have been hurriedly packing and trying to get things cleaned up all at the same time. Life is hectic and crazy busy at the moment. My son's 2nd b-day party is this month too. So, lets recap...we are having a garage sale on May 9th, we begin moving stuff to the other house on May 15th, and Asher's b-day party is on May 16th. We are to be completley out of this present house by the end of May. PLUS, I started a new job on Mon. May 4th, for more income. Why the h*** is it soo hard to live in this world....why is it soo d*** expensive? I will admit that I was manipulated into qutting my job to stay home and take care of kids (that I never got paid for more than a couple times anyway), despite my husband wanting me to contine working. I was wrong to go and do what I though I wanted to do, and go against his better judgment. I'm sorry for that. AND to make matters worse, I couldn't get my job back. Ugh!! So, I have resorted to fast food part time to make up the difference that we need to survive. Oh, and I will admit that we are seeking assistance from the state for my son to go to school/daycare during the day, while Kent and I are at work, a couple years ago...I would have been to proud to ask for help, but you gotta do what you gotta do to survive right?
Well...okay...bare with me while I get on my soap box for just a minute. Can ANYONE tell me why the state caters to the lazy a**es that sit on thier butt all day and don't do anything, or worse, go from job to job (because they don't FEEL peace about the job they are at) and yet, they are the ones that get ALL the financial help. But the people that truly need it, that actually bust thier butt to try and provide for thier family we are screwed and the state says "sorry, there is nothing we can do for you". I mean really, what kind of fair is that. I know that life is not fair, that is one thing that life has taught me, but really! Okay, sorry for that...I will get off my soap box now.
Well, as I mentioned we are having a garage sale on May 9th. We are selling ALL types of things. Since it's a moving sale, there are items such as: washer/dryer, refridgerator, lots of clothes, dishes, misc. items. So, we have been runing around trying to get it all together. I have spent the last couple weeks trying to run around trying to get all these together. Because we only have 2 DAYS LEFT until the sale. So, as you can imagine, our house is a mess (and yes, I do mean, a mess) I know what some of you are thinking. Jodie is such an OCD "clean freak", how can her house be a mess, well friends....it is. DEAL WITH IT!! And not to mention, we are also moving too, so not only are thier garage sale boxes everywhere, but also moving boxes everywhere, and also stuff is not exactly cleaned up.
Well, that is enough for now....more to come later.
Jineen---Love you! Thank you!
Well...okay...bare with me while I get on my soap box for just a minute. Can ANYONE tell me why the state caters to the lazy a**es that sit on thier butt all day and don't do anything, or worse, go from job to job (because they don't FEEL peace about the job they are at) and yet, they are the ones that get ALL the financial help. But the people that truly need it, that actually bust thier butt to try and provide for thier family we are screwed and the state says "sorry, there is nothing we can do for you". I mean really, what kind of fair is that. I know that life is not fair, that is one thing that life has taught me, but really! Okay, sorry for that...I will get off my soap box now.
Well, as I mentioned we are having a garage sale on May 9th. We are selling ALL types of things. Since it's a moving sale, there are items such as: washer/dryer, refridgerator, lots of clothes, dishes, misc. items. So, we have been runing around trying to get it all together. I have spent the last couple weeks trying to run around trying to get all these together. Because we only have 2 DAYS LEFT until the sale. So, as you can imagine, our house is a mess (and yes, I do mean, a mess) I know what some of you are thinking. Jodie is such an OCD "clean freak", how can her house be a mess, well friends....it is. DEAL WITH IT!! And not to mention, we are also moving too, so not only are thier garage sale boxes everywhere, but also moving boxes everywhere, and also stuff is not exactly cleaned up.
Well, that is enough for now....more to come later.
Jineen---Love you! Thank you!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Tag Your it.
...Okay, so this is a blog idea that I stole from my wonderfully, beautifully, talented...Jineen.....I hope you all enjoy it.
8 Things I'm looking forward to
1. summer vacation
2. Getting in the new house
3. Going to Florida for a family getaway
4. These Terrible 2's being over
5. Christmas ( I know....it's a ways a way)
6. having more money coming in, so we are not SOOO tapped for money.
7. making friends
8. MY BIRTHDAY
8 things I did yesterday
1. Went to breakfast with my lil man :-)
2. Spent some much needed time with my hubby
3. Washed clothes
4. Went to the dr.
5. Made dinner
6. Watched a movie with my lil man :-)
7. Got stuff together for the garage sale next Sat.
8. Packed stuff to move
8 things I wish I could do
1. buy a house
2. go back to school
3. be a stay athome mom
4. be a bit more confident
5. get lasik eye surgery, so I could get rid of these dumb glasses
6. be more athletic
7. meet Ty Pennington (that man is HOT!!)
8. have another baby
8 shows I watch
1.CSI
2. house
3. law and order svu
4. CSI: NY
5. CSI: Miami
6. Clean House
7. Jon and Kate Plus 8 ( I love that women's organizational skills)
8. Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
8 people to tag
1. Jineen's Blog
2. Heather's Blog
3. Jenn Dunn's Blog
4. Sarah Swinford's Blog
5. Sarah Parr's Blog
6. Tracie Wheeler's Blog
7. Sabrina Hill's Blog
8. ummm...I guess I don't have that many friends because I can't think of anyone else.
Thanks to all reading this......
Jodie
8 Things I'm looking forward to
1. summer vacation
2. Getting in the new house
3. Going to Florida for a family getaway
4. These Terrible 2's being over
5. Christmas ( I know....it's a ways a way)
6. having more money coming in, so we are not SOOO tapped for money.
7. making friends
8. MY BIRTHDAY
8 things I did yesterday
1. Went to breakfast with my lil man :-)
2. Spent some much needed time with my hubby
3. Washed clothes
4. Went to the dr.
5. Made dinner
6. Watched a movie with my lil man :-)
7. Got stuff together for the garage sale next Sat.
8. Packed stuff to move
8 things I wish I could do
1. buy a house
2. go back to school
3. be a stay athome mom
4. be a bit more confident
5. get lasik eye surgery, so I could get rid of these dumb glasses
6. be more athletic
7. meet Ty Pennington (that man is HOT!!)
8. have another baby
8 shows I watch
1.CSI
2. house
3. law and order svu
4. CSI: NY
5. CSI: Miami
6. Clean House
7. Jon and Kate Plus 8 ( I love that women's organizational skills)
8. Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
8 people to tag
1. Jineen's Blog
2. Heather's Blog
3. Jenn Dunn's Blog
4. Sarah Swinford's Blog
5. Sarah Parr's Blog
6. Tracie Wheeler's Blog
7. Sabrina Hill's Blog
8. ummm...I guess I don't have that many friends because I can't think of anyone else.
Thanks to all reading this......
Jodie
The First Blog-Just me!
Okay, well, yeah, this is my first blog, but after taking the advice of a close friend/family memeber, I decided to start MY OWN blog. Yeah, it's gonna be rants and rambalings of me and my life. I am sorry for anyone reading this that is offended, but I if there is one thing in my life that is becoming MORE AND MORE clear to me, it is that you CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE!! No matter how hard you try. I HAVE been burnt by people, been on the other end of gossip, and had close friends and family members betray me. I'M DONE! I'm LIVING FOR GOD, and NO ONE ELSE!
Now, some of you that are reading this may be thinking, OMG...this girl is a b****, but oh, well. I'm done trying to please people. I've spent the majority of my life trying to please everyone and having people approve of what I did. I am not really sure why it took so long, but you live and learn right?
I will LIVE MY OWN LIFE, and DO MY OWN THINGS, to GOD'S GLORY and submit to my husband as I am instructed to do in God's word. I'm sorry if you don't agree with me, I have done some soul searching and been throught a WHOLE LOT more than most people should have to deal with ithin a 6 month period. I think they breaking point for me was back in Feb. (over v-day weekend) when my husband I lost our little girl, Jordyn Blaire. it was at that point that I just GAVE UP and GAVE FULL CONTROL to God. I couldn't do it anymore. I knew that I wasn't strong enough to do it and needed help.
Well, I'm done rambling for now. Thanks for stopping by to listen to me rant. You're awesome! Love you all!
Now, some of you that are reading this may be thinking, OMG...this girl is a b****, but oh, well. I'm done trying to please people. I've spent the majority of my life trying to please everyone and having people approve of what I did. I am not really sure why it took so long, but you live and learn right?
I will LIVE MY OWN LIFE, and DO MY OWN THINGS, to GOD'S GLORY and submit to my husband as I am instructed to do in God's word. I'm sorry if you don't agree with me, I have done some soul searching and been throught a WHOLE LOT more than most people should have to deal with ithin a 6 month period. I think they breaking point for me was back in Feb. (over v-day weekend) when my husband I lost our little girl, Jordyn Blaire. it was at that point that I just GAVE UP and GAVE FULL CONTROL to God. I couldn't do it anymore. I knew that I wasn't strong enough to do it and needed help.
Well, I'm done rambling for now. Thanks for stopping by to listen to me rant. You're awesome! Love you all!
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